A Depressed Person’s Failed Review of Blue is the Warmest Color
This past month I have been more depressed than maybe any other time in my life. This is partially, or maybe mostly due to having recently been through the worst ending to a relationship that I have ever experienced. Some days I feel worse than others, and it has gotten a little better very recently, but most days leaving bed feels impossible. Sex isn’t appealing, drugs are only appealing insomuch as they make it easier to fall asleep and stay asleep for more hours than I normally would, I have consistently avoided social interaction as much as possible, I have something like 25 unread emails and I am late for at least 5 deadlines to submit writing to different publications.
I have had sex with 4 or 5 different people since the break up, despite feeling mostly uninterested in any kind of relationship. I am now experiencing a thing I used to experience a lot when I was living in Los Angeles of having sex with someone then feeling like I would pay any amount of money for them to leave my bedroom immediately so I can take Xanax and stare at my ceiling for an hour then sleep for 15 hours and spend the next day alternating between being awake for 1 hour and sleeping for 2 hours.
6:19 pm • 5 December 2013 • 50 notes
special SNEAK PREVIEW/last 4 mins of Lil’ Bitch 2 Tour Doc (the full 30 min version will be up tomorrow on THE FANZINE along with Chelsea’s tour diary; my 12k tour diary goes up wednesday, suckas)
10:06 pm • 25 November 2013 • 34 notes
What was your favorite book that you read this year?
Mira Gonzalez - my favorite book i read this year was probably good morning midnight by jean rhys because it made me feel less alone during a time when i felt very alone
2:48 pm • 24 November 2013 • 166 notes
excerpt from a Mira Gonzalez interview
FZ: One of the poems in your book ends with the lines “what is the difference between being an independent person/and being a person who is accepting of loneliness”; do you feel this is a question you have answered, or one that still haunts you in some form?
MG: I feel like there is no…
5:22 pm • 21 November 2013 • 19 notes
Best Poetry 2013 â Goodreads Choice Awards
Discover the Best Poetry in the 2013 Goodreads Choice Awards, the only major book awards decided by readers.
Mira Gonzalez is in the final round for best poetry book of 2013.
The book deserves it. the themes, imagery, and overall style of the poems are individually fantastic, but are even more powerful as a collected whole, and her work deserves more recognition.
Do yourselves a favour, vote for the book, read her poetry, be a better person. It’s just that simple.
5:22 pm • 21 November 2013 • 6 notes
I just need you to know exactly what I want without me having to say anything by mira gonzalez
do you remember that dream I had
where my fingers touched your fingers
and we came to understand that our hands were capable of
expressing complex emotions as seperate entities from our bodies
4:04 am • 18 November 2013 • 24 notes
Here is the final lineup for Pop Serial #5, the forthcoming new issue:
Victor “Kool A.D.” Vazquez, Steve Roggenbuck, Luna Miguel, Ben Brooks, Brad Troemel, Scott McClanahan, Blaise Larmee, Heiko Julien, Crispin Best, Mira Gonzalez, Spencer Madsen, Chelsea Martin, Rachel B. Glaser, Ana Carrete, Guillaume Morissette, Timothy Willis Sanders, Mike Bushnell, Ashley Opheim, Gabby Bess, Sarah Jean Alexander, Andrew James Weatherhead, James Ganas, Theron Jacobs, Shaun Gannon, Cassandra Gillig, Michael Hessel-Mial, Jackson Nieuwland, Dave Shaw, Zachery Wood, Chad Redden, Jacob Steinberg, Lucy Tiven, Marshall Mallicoat, Kelsea Basye, Theo Thimo, Chris Dankland, Bianca Shipton, Dylan York, Ralph Moffettone.
Layout by Erik Carter.
Art by Blaise Larmee.
Cover by Tao Lin.
1:52 pm • 17 November 2013 • 53 notes